things are clearer for me now.
i want YOU back.
as in the song "whatever i said, whatever i did, i didn't mean it. i just want you back for good..."
i just want to know if you love me too. but that's impossible to happen.
i'm satisfied with the way we are right now. we're good friends.
i'm plainly afraid of what might happen. by the time i tell you how i feel, you might turn away. i can't imagine a "me" without "you".
my heart beats only for you.
yes, i am a coward. but it's hard to change me. that's the way i am. afraid to lose whom i feel very deeply for.
i'm hating myself for hurting you and my heart. i bleed for you. i love you. i STILL love YOU!
i think it's high time for me to tell you that anyway. it's doing myself a favor. i want to release all of these excessive emotions. i want to explode! but i do wish i would soon find the courage to tell you....
that....
I LOVE YOU SINCE THEN 'TIL NOW! 
